september 19

my aching bones, man. margaret's been letting me sleep and go to the farm later than her. i feel like a chump. but dude. its hard to get out the bed in the dark. she goes to the farm around 6. i've been leaving around 8. its much nicer for me, but still hard. i've never been a morning person. i wish i could switch it on.



i've been doing so much work! i love it! i harvested butternut squash today, left them to cure in the sun in crates. those crates get heavy. i played banjo a bunch while margaret went in to get her truck looked at- it made bad sounds today. yesterday i harvested beans all morning which made all the muscles in my thighs and my butt sore. when i worked on the farm in ny, i always did stretches for like 45 minutes when i woke up in the morning. i feel so far removed from that now, but that's what i need. and a portable juicer... does that exist? it should. i want to juice things anywhere any time... everywhere all the time...

tat soi is my new favorite vegetable.

moccasins are hard to finish sewing without needle-nose pliers.

i changed the verse in my song about flowers on a grave, its too serious. now it goes

let's make love like flowers do with bees
make the honey sweet
let's be flowers let's be bees

i wish i went to the DIY fair at 2640 in the spring. i wish i knew how to skin and preserve roadkill. there is so much of it i see every day... i keep thinking about how many moccasins you could make from a deer and instead it just rots... hopefully I'll find myself at some farm somewhere learning how to tan hides and such...

i'd like to learn cheese making even though i don't eat cheese... other things i want to learn:
how to mill grains
to tan hides
to make jam
to can things
to do beadwork
to do engine repair
to do regular construction work
to do alternative building like hay bales, etc
all about natural remedies + more about nutrition in general and nutritional content of foods
extracting essential oils
um.... how to everything...

also how to shoot and develop film... i forget... i can't find a new camera battery for the minolta sarah gave me before i left... i did put film in it today, though, so i'll just be guessing on the light meter...

anyway. i'm ready for whatever is next.